Do not try to be so hard on yourself, trying to find answers to all yoru questions. Sometimes learn to take life as it is. Accept the answers which are not given to you. May be it will work out the best for you. Sometimes just think of taking a quiet walk around a lake and wonder about things which are more beautiful in life. Sometimes reduce your pace and just say to yourself, "I will have a relaxed day"
“I’ve made mistakes in my life. I’ve let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less than I deserve, but I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I’ll know better next time and I won’t settle for anything less than I deserve.”