Do not try to be so hard on yourself, trying to find answers to all yoru questions. Sometimes learn to take life as it is. Accept the answers which are not given to you. May be it will work out the best for you. Sometimes just think of taking a quiet walk around a lake and wonder about things which are more beautiful in life. Sometimes reduce your pace and just say to yourself, "I will have a relaxed day"
Today I decided to forgive you. Not because you apologized or because you acknowledged the pain that you caused me, but because my soul deserves peace.