Do not try to be so hard on yourself, trying to find answers to all yoru questions. Sometimes learn to take life as it is. Accept the answers which are not given to you. May be it will work out the best for you. Sometimes just think of taking a quiet walk around a lake and wonder about things which are more beautiful in life. Sometimes reduce your pace and just say to yourself, "I will have a relaxed day"
In the end its not about who desired you..but who values you
Its not about who broke your heart but who mended it
Its not about those who let you down but those who held you up
It’s not about all the times you were called beautiful, it’s about all the days you felt it.
Seriously, be strong and know when enough is enough. Take your stand, speak up and refuse to let others hurt you. Throughout your lifetime some people will discredit you, disrespect you and treat you poorly for no apparent reason at all. Don’t consume yourself with trying to change them or win their approval.
Do not mix love nd life. Life is messy i agree. There will difficult moments, bills that seem to be too much, jobs might be tiring. There will be staff issue..All this is ok. You may have to sell possessions just to make ends meet and live of grilled cheese sandwiches and hope. This is life. It’s going to be messy. However this chaos has nothing to do with love. If you love someone, keep all this mess aside and live those moments with him/her.